March Mindfulness continued…
Life is a little crazy right now. Things are up in the air. Looming over my head. I don’t know how or where life will take us in the coming months. (I know, it sounds so doom and gloom over here…) Seriously, when I was thinking of doing the mindfulness-thing for the month of March, I did not envision how useful it would be. Things happen for a reason!
I have anxiety. And when the shit hits the fan, seriously, it hits it HARD. (pardon my French!) I have found ways to deal with it, but sometimes when the attack comes, it’s hard to stop it. It’s almost like, if I don’t have that panic attack that’s about to follow, then I won’t feel better. This is something that I definitely developed later in my adult-hood, although getting ‘stressed out’ is something I’ve probably always had. Sometimes I would feed off of it, it was my fuel to push myself harder, work harder, do better, etc. Then, you reach a point where you just burn out. Then the stress and the anxiety doesn’t become your fuel, it ends up becoming your kryptonite.
I’ve been pretty faithful in my small attempts at being mindful. Some of what Kabat-Zinn recommends asks you to remove yourself from your present. Look around you- almost, pretend that you’re ‘dead’- not so much in a if I were to not exist then life would go on- but more in a way to realize that life is constantly moving, and if you do take a few moments to yourself, the world will not keel over. I do this randomly throughout the day- especially if I have the pleasure of walking across campus for a meeting. Instead of running through my mind of the millions of little things I have to do or starting to worry about something, I focus on my surroundings.
What’s even more difficult, is to calm yourself when you feel the stress and anxiety coming on. When you’ve already crossed a threshold, it’s hard to stop. This is something that I have NOT even close to mastered yet. In the beginning, it can be even more stressful when you can’t get yourself to calm down using your new-found techniques. Given all of that, it’s still important to keep trying!
This upcoming week, I’m going to start incorporating a 3-5 minute mini ‘meditation’ to start my day. It’s not so much my expectation to jump right into meditation, but an attempt to start my practice into just learning to focus on my breath and clearing my mind. More to come next week!
I’ve had this skirt for a while- and I’ve been trying to find a way to wear it more casually! Enter floral sweatshirt!! It’s still miserably cold here in Nashville, so might as well continue dressing for this weird winter-almost-spring weather!
Skirt- So this skirt is from Zara, but I can’t find the same green one online anymore! Here’s one in blue Similar- Zara Pleated Velvet SkirtP